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I also want kids but my head can’t let go of the idea that I’m gay. But I do know this I want to have a girlfriend and wife later on in my life. I feel like I’ve said the same thing over and over in this post. Deep down I feel like I’m straight because I have nerves once thought about being gay. My head just says what if I’m gay and I actually want to. I don’t see myself doing any sexual with another man or even dating another man. I still can’t get the thought out of my head though. I read this post saying that this person felt the same way but he ended just being lonely like I was and said not mistake that feeling. I would litterally cry for days because I wanted a girlfriend and someone there to comfort me.
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The other thing is I’ve also felt very lonely for the past few months before this started I would cry because I wanted a girlfriend and that I felt like I as invisible. I was fine for a few days like maybe a week and then I started to doubt myself again and still can’t get this question out of my head. But then my head is like wait am I gay and I go through this loop. Sometimes I’m so busy with life that these thoughts go away and I’m not paying attention to how I act and I’m not checking out other men to see my reactions. I’m reason but other people post about this and articles saying that I might have HOCD. Then as soon as I wake up i have those thoughts. The only thing I want to do is sleep because that’s when I don’t have those thoughts. I can’t concentrate on school because of this. Sometimes I feel like crying and sometimes I barely eat because of this. But now since my head is telling me that I’m gay I’m really scared that I actually am. The problem is never have I thought about being with another man or doing sexual things. Now I feel like I’m being tricked by my own brain thinking that I might be gay. I don’t feel like I’m gay this was really sudden like literally out of no where. The idea of doing sexual things to another guy kind of disgust me. Not once have I thought that i would want to do that with another man, but now my head is saying that once I come out then I will like it. I start to pay attention to see how I act and watch porn to see if I’m straight or gay. I can’t get it out of my bad I’m really confused because I’ve always liked women and now my head is saying that I’m gay and I actually liked that person. I’m really scared because I’ve never thought about another guy like that but recently my head is saying your gay. Then all of a sudden I’m like wait am I gay did I like this person. At first I was like that’s groos and I unfiended him. Until recently I was playing this game with a girl later I find out she’s a guy. I have many friends of the same sex and never had a crush or looked at them in a sexual way. I have never once thought that I would be gay. Im a 16 year old male and have recently started questioning my sexuality.